With those thoughts I considered my new engagement; that I had awife, one child born, and my wife then great with child of another;that I had all the world could give me, and had no need to seekhazard for gain; that I was declining in years, and ought to thinkrather of leaving what I had gained than of seeking to increase it;that as to what my wife had said of its being an impulse fromHeaven, and that it should be my duty to go, I had no notion ofthat; so, after many of these cogitations, I struggled with thepower of my imagination, reasoned myself out of it, as I believepeople may always do in like cases if they will: in a word, Iconquered it, composed myself with such arguments as occurred to mythoughts, and which my present condition furnished me plentifullywith; and particularly, as the most effectual method, I resolved todivert myself with other things, and to engage in some businessthat might effectually tie me up from any more excursions of thiskind; for I found that thing return upon me chiefly whe